Gong Xi Gong Xi!

Had an enjoyable but tiring Chinese New Year, the 1st day at least. We went to 6 places! And reached home around 12 plus in the morning. 2nd day was more relaxing; we just went to 1 house to visit. Heh.

Kaelyn wore her very 1st cheongsam on Day 1; we bought it from Bloom.



And her Day 2 outfit was kindly given to her from Auntie Clarice and Uncle Eli. Actually we wanted her to wear a Chateau de Sable dress from Auntie Yingyuen, Auntie Karina and Uncle Kelvin on Day 2, but Chloe wore the exact same dress on Day 1! Heh.



Also, Kae watched her very 1st Lion Dance on Day 2 at Grand 3rd Auntie's house. She was overwhelmed by the noise, and had to be coaxed while being carried. We took a picture with Cai Shen Ye! So hopefully this year, we will HUAT ah!




And we finally get to see little Kayla! She is really a darling, with her rosy cheeks :) The sad thing was I couldn't get a nice picture of the 2 darlings together :( .




And I am growing fat from eating all the new year goodies, not to mention falling sick. I am now having a sore throat and a fever. Sigh. What to do. I am that greedy!

Happy Lunar New Year to all! Heard from my cousin that Day 1 falls on Valentine's Day next year, and will follow through to 16 Feb (my dar's birthdate), as Day 1 falls on a holiday!

Shin, you'll be missed...

Just found out from Shin's blog this morning that Shin had passed away yesterday.

I do not know Shin, but from her blog (http://shinscancerblog.blogspot.com/), have grown to understand this feisty woman who battled breast cancer since year 2005. According to her husband, Shin passed away peacefully in her sleep, just the way she wanted.

Rest in peace Shin. Your courage, positive outlook in life, and your sheer determination will be greatly missed.

and we'll party on and on and on...

I finally partied last saturday at Dragonfly. It was my 1st time at DF and 2nd time at St James. Hah. Well, it was fun! The band was good, the singers were good, the songs were good, no complaints! And we went really early at 830pm, so we managed to get seats, although they were behind the stage. 6 of us shared 2 bottles of vodka! Haha. Mainly because they cost only $240 for 2 bottles.

This is the 5 of us 6; Aud, Me, Jas, Jerlene and Charlene. The 6th person, Victor, is behind the camera, haha.


Even though it's DF, I was still quite shocked when the waiters and waitresses spoke to us in chinese. I was like hur? The band sang a mixture of mainly chinese and some cantonese songs. When the DJ is on, it's mostly english music. Towards the end of the night, I felt a bit giddy! Hah, Because I haven't drank in a while I guess.

Oh well, there is always a next time! In February! As we have half a bottle left! Yay! Party on and on and on and on... I think I am going bonkers...

Dreams do come true... Only for some...

I went out with a JC school mate yesterday. He is back in Singapore for about 2 months before flying off to Brisbane for his flying course. Yes, he's a SIA pilot to be in training. I am very happy for him. Why? This has always been his childhood dream. And he's on his way to attaining the dream. How many friends we know can do that?

I don't know. This just gets me thinking: what were my dreams? What did I want to do when I was young? I seriously have no idea. My initial dream was to be a teacher. But I soon realise I have no such patience. A nurse? I can't even clear my baby's poo without whining. A fashion designer? I can't draw for nuts. A pyschologist? I didn't manage to get into that course in university.

But seriously, I've always wanted to be a fashion designer. After I quit my job 2 plus years ago, I considered going back to school to get that degree. But it costs money. And time. And I don't know. Maybe I am not brave enough to go pursue what I want in life. How sad is that. I am not brave enough to be the oldest student in class. I am not brave enough to spend my husband's hard earned money on a degree that might not get me anywhere in life. I am not brave enough to spend another sum of money to set up a line that might not generate enough to sustain a business. I am not brave enough to find out if I can attain my dream.

And now, I have no time to do anything. I have Kae. I can't just push her aside and go pursue what I should have 2 years ago when we are still just the 2 of us. I can't just go and live for me. And now, I may have to live my life not knowing what could have been.

from Baby to Toddler, officially

We celebrated Kaelyn's 1st birthday on the actual day, 10 Jan, with our friends and family at Coffee Club Siglap. We had the whole internal dining area to ourselves! Heehee. As we were expecting around 70 people, we needed to hold Kae's party outside of our tiny EC which has no function room. I looked and emailed around, and viola! Coffee Club!


It was quite fun actually. The food was alright, and the kids were elated with Mr Balloon Man. Hah. Yes, we got a guy to come do balloons for the kids. He was such a hit with them! And some adults, yes, went to him for his "flower corsages". Heh. I thought that this was a good idea to have, as we need not fret about what to give as door gifts to all the kids then.


But towards the end, I was quite tired. And Kae was not really in her usual smiley mood that day. Perhaps she was overwhelmed by the number of people at her party. There was altogether 70 adults, excluding the kids. It really is no joke to have a party for kids. I don't think I am doing this again. Hah. Maybe when she turns 16!


Oh, and thanks to all our friends and family who were there to help us celebrate Kae turning 1. Really appreciate you all taking time off your busy schedule to attend Kae's party. Muacks!

Kaelyn is now 1 year old!

Happy 1st Birthday Kae! Heehee. It's official. My baby had become a toddler. Older. I can't imagine it had been a year since I've had her.


We celebrated her 1st birthday as a family 1 day in advance at Prego. And we gave her her very 1st taste of chocolate moose cake, and she also had her 1st sip of orange juice.












Hee. Am now looking forward to her birthday celebration at Coffee Club Siglap later!

What a scene

We were having dinner at Kopitiam at Compass Point, Sengkang. I was happily waiting for dar dar to buy dinner for me while feeding Kae with her new organic Biscotts from Hipp Organic. I heard a baby cry and I turned to look. Yes, I was just being a busybody. I saw this toddler, not much older than Kae, crying and crying. I was not sure if he was being naughty or uncomfortable or hungry.

Anyways, the woman whom I assume was his mother was scolding him. And suddenly, she slapped the poor boy just like that. SLAPPED! What the hell? I am telling you, I saw a lot of people at the surrounding tables looking at the mother. I am not saying that she is an unfit mother (who knows what kind of little terror the boy is or not), but how can you slap your own child and a toddler in this respect in public? You shouldn't even raise your hand and hit your boy at ANYTIME. Okay, she is an UNFIT mother! I was seriously horrified. I can see it in all the busybodies' eyes that they share the same sentiments. So what if you are a young mother? She looked like an ah lian. With long blonde hair, wearing super high wedges (think they are like 12cm high, seriously!), and looked super young. So were the 2 friends who were with her. God forbid the young man with her be the toddler's father. If the mother can slap the boy in public, I can't even bear to think what she will do to him when he's being naughty at home in private. Poor boy.

3 more days to go

Kaelyn will be 1 year old in 3 days' time. From baby to toddler. How time flies. Counting down. Oh crap, I haven't bought a matching top to go with what Kae is going to wear on saturday. Crap.

Olivia Ong's rendition of First of May

First Of May - Olivia

Love is but a word...

Recently, I received 1 good and 1 bad news.

One of my good friend is getting hitched! I am so so so happy for her! She finally found a guy who is commited to making their relationship work for the rest of their lives. There's always something warm and fuzzy about weddings. I am so looking forward to her wedding. Hee. Yes, they may not have known each other for very long. But who says that time is an indication of the couple's love. I know of 2 couples who broke up after being together for like 8 years. Yes, 8 years! Can you imagine that.

Another good friend of mine is sadly, getting divorced. I won't get into the reason why. But the underlying reason is that the guy did something that totally shattered her trust in him. As friends, we try to dissuade her; divorce should always be the last option if nothing else works. But ultimately, the decision lies with her. What we can do is to offer her our opinions, and suggestions and advice. But I do understand where she's coming from. It's always easy to forgive, and almost impossible to forget.

We always (well I always) think that love conquers all when we were oh so young and oh so innocent, and oh so hopeful. Love at first sight do happen, and some do love happily ever after. But oh so often are break-ups and falling outs. Falling in love is one thing, staying in love is another. Why would people then break up after being together for 8 years? And then comes marriage, which is another issue altogether. It involves committment to each other and the offspring. It involves welcoming another group of people into your lives - the other family. Do not even get me started on how this is a tough tough situation to be in. External factors are but the deciding factors of how strong your committment is to each other, besides the prevailing love.

Personally, I only have 1 good friend who is going through a rough patch. But every now and then, I do hear of cases whereby marriages fail, and the love lost was absolutely the last thing on their minds. I wonder, in cases whereby the couples fail to make their marriage work, where did all their love go?

Come what may, I still choose to believe in love. And here are my 2 loves!

6 days to go... My baby will be 1!

6 more days to go before Kae turns 1 year old. You might think that I will be super busy now preparing for Kae's party. On the contrary, I am not. We've settled the venue at Coffee Club Siglap. We've hired a guy to come to do balloons for the kids, and also to do simple balloon decorations at the venue. That's it. Nothing for me to do. Hah. Well, we are going to buy a candle, and a streamer. I've bought a pooh doorway curtain for guests to walk through. Hah. Hmm. Not sure if it can fit their door. Sigh. Yes, pooh. Just because my baby loves the pooh decal in her room. Heehee. To those who are coming, see you all coming saturday!

Looking Back

Happy New Year! My 1st post of the year 2009. Heh.

Looking back at 2008, I wonder where my 366 days had gone to; year 2008 was a leap year. Oh yes, all to Kaelyn Yeo! All my time and energy had been spent on my baby, and my baby is turning 1 year old soon! In 9 days' time! Time really flies. Hmm, I don't think I have accomplished anything else. I was supposed to go and earn a driving license, but alas, lazy me is still license-less. Heh. I wonder when I will finally go start learning how to drive a car. Knowing me, I would say not when I absolutely need that piece of card.

2008 was the last year when I could say my age starts with the word twenty. Yes, I will be turning 30 in March. How freaky is that. THIRY. And what have I done in my thirty years of living that I am proud of? Nothing really. Yes, maybe I am now in my mid life crisis or what nought. Have I wasted my life the past thirty years? What have I accomplish? Where do I go from here? Should I take up another degree? Should I continue to be a stay home mum? Should I focus all my energy on Kae still?

I used to have plans. I used to think that by the time I am thirty, I would be driving my own car, working in a job that I love, go for further studies to further enhance my value, etc. I used to think that by a certain age, I would have achieved what I set out to achieve. However, as time goes by, the targets in mind seem to get all blurry, and soon after, I have no idea what my plans are, and the targets in mind seem to have disappear.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy where I am now. Just that sometimes I wonder if I am really living for me, living my life. Should I explore more? Or should I just see what life brings me, and go with the flow. If it happens, it happens?